Happy Birthday! Brooks is 3

Today Brooks celebrates his 3rd birthday. I’m filled with memories and stories of this sweet boy and think about the moments that brought us to where we are now. I’m exhausted. Not only because I’ve been planning his parties – yes parties, as in more than one. I’m exhausted because of all the thought and worry and prayers and work Mark and I have put into this little boy. And that is one of the reason why he is one lucky guy.

Little Brooks,

Happy Birthday! I’m so excited that you are excited. This is the first year that you understand what a birthday is and what you do at a birthday – you eat cake. You’ve been talking about your birthday since March, so I think we are all happy that it is here.

Before you were born, I couldn’t wait to see you and hold you. I don’t know if I’ve ever planned, worried, or longed for any other single event in my whole life. Everyday, you surprise us with your words, stories, and songs. You are becoming a wonderful little guy so fast.

Since its your birthday, here are some of my favorite memories, pictures, and things about you.

I love your smile. Its contagious!

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I’m So Thankful

Life is occasionally hectic. My life is overflowing with figurines, trains, puzzles, and cars. I step on them, I clean them up numerous times a day, and I go on search parties looking for the always-missing fireman.

But sometimes, they show up in odd places and they make me laugh and then I’m grateful. I wish I could hold on to that feeling for more than a few moments, but its fleeting.